Last night he called. They were given an hour break and get in touch with their loved ones through phone. I was blabbering, trying to sound casual as I didn’t want crying bouts to start. He was just listening most of the time, telling me how much he missed me, how wonderful my voice sounded, describing to me how magical the fireflies can look at night. He watches their nightly performance, the best that he can look forward to, at the end of the day. I told him Feb 14 is fast approaching. We will be reaching our 5th year of being married. God knows how much I pray for him to be there on that day. Nevertheless, I got my own plans. Me and my officemates have already booked a private videoke room. I won’t have time to be manic-depressive. I promise.
He was able to give me their exact location. Today we drove to that faraway town, to that primitive sounding barangay, and to where we saw their little makeshift tents erected proudly, but rather grotesquely, at least for me. Papang had a plan. We would pretend something’s wrong with the engine. That would give us at least 10 minutes. And so the engine ‘went dead’ right in front of the camp gate. How marvelous. Anyway, we didn’t see him. I suspected he was trying to hide up on that tower where he said he was assigned as a sniper. Whether he saw us or not, I didn’t think it mattered. It was enough for me that our son saw where his Tatay stays, while he’s away from us. As we drove away, I took two desperate shots. Just to try and capture the moment. In this first photo, Abe’s hand is shown waving. “Babay Tataaaayyy!!!”
It tugs at my heart, of course. Leaves this kind of pang that has become so familiar over the years. But I don’t have any choice but to stay strong, have I? “Nurture strength of spirit for sudden misfortunes” as my present mantra from Desiderata would say.
I praise and thank the Lord for being my pillar, for being a friend who doesn’t get tired of me. After some period of darkness I am out again, wanting to be excited for the happy days.
14 comments:
hibi.com ko sa babay tatay \. sakit dughan... cge lng ... look forward lng ... God has great things prepared.
si hannah super cry man read blog ko.toink hehehe miskin ano himuon ko drama gid ya ang blog ko no?daw indi na ko kabalo mag sulat blog nga indi drama hahaha. pero kunsabagay sad gid man ang sitwasyon namon.even ang buddy ni reinee nga gina txt ko, nasubuan man pagbalo nga la mn lang namon nakita si reinee.
haay tani upod ta para ma diskarte pa gid ta nga maka gwa si reinee...ay sori, basi mabasahan ni sg miga ta mahambal naman sya nga tikalon ko..wahahaha
subo gid man...manapla na? tuod man, im not joking, we can go there and i'll talk to the head miskan ka dali lg..
as in cat?sige kay maka call sya sa dason hambalon ko sya nga pwede ta na mahimo. nag call naman sya gina.hopefully kno within this month maka break na sila. kabay pa...
chakah, sakit dughan ko... dats y limited ko mag read imo blog.chaka, pin ot dug han ko, matumba lang ko d karon nga la pilas... mayo lang gapunko ko, eh eh eh... super flash back ang training days... waaahhhhhhhhh... though how much i tried convencing myself that i enjoyed my training days, there's a little portion of me that suffers when it comes to missing my family... waaahhhhhhhh... how kind of papang to do dat... huhuhuhuuh... nami gd man nga may car.. hiihhiihih... haaaaaayyyyyyyyy.. atleast naghagan hagan sakit akon dughan ah.... haaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy
huo cute cute gani kay papang.gin read man ni ni hannah, na cutan man sya kay papang.kag cry.com man sya kno pag read ya.toink. pero miskin drama lang mga blogs ko, at least it is helping me unburden myself, esp sa sini nga mga times nga halos tanan sako.wala time mag sit down, listen, spend time with a friend.
i feel for you...ann, subo man gid...undoubtedly would challenge any strongwilled and the optimist...i was at the brink of crying on seeing abe's hand.hayyy,amazing how a child is just so full of strength and wisdom.
Love your b log..have added you to my links..
Mir, thank you. It comforts me to know I don't need to tell you the details para ma intindihan mo ko...*hugs*
Mrs Parkes! I am so happy to see you here and so so honored to be included in your links. Many many thanks :) We're presently working on your article for Misyon and I've already been inspired just by doing the VCD presentation.
Very touching story, Anne!
Hope you find strength. Ahay amo gid na layu-ay no? kasubo pero di mo mabatyagan he will be back soon!
Anne, daw mahibi man ko ya sng situation niyo ah. luoy man sa inyo. can only imagine how hard it is for you! i hope you get to find a way to change things soon! and take heart, God IS always with you, my friend!
mapz, IA, thank you for the encouraging words :) helps to know friends understand. right now, I am just trying my best to endure. prayer of St Francis helps me these days..."Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can. And wisdom to know the difference."
i didn't realize how challenging it was to be in your situation. i think i will cry my gusts out, get crazy even!
your strength is a grace from God.
mama_aly, thank you. yes, it is indeed a grace from God. i've long since given up if it wasn't for Him.
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