It was October 4, I was supposed to be writing a birthday blog, thinking I owed it to myself for always being on the run. But it's the same day I had trouble with my internet connection. In fact, I was out till just last night. I didn't know I was supposed to get really mad over the phone with those technical representatives so they would do something about my ordeal. So, on the eighth, painfully agonizing night, I took courage to sound really angry and demanding over the phone with the technical support. IF YOU'RE NOT FIXING MY LINE TOMORROW, I'M SWITCHING TO PLDT! I guess they felt my lava going through their ear pieces that the following day, that is yesterday, my line was back.
But then again, what would have I written about the past week? Just painful, sad, awful news. And I don't really like talking about such things in my journal. I usually write about them, when they're over and I am already able to make sense of it all. But now, I am just too tired and too sad to even think about it. I keep learning though, I keep taking it all in, dissecting them, nibbling them. Because that is what this existence is supposed to be: love, get hurt, learn, give, receive, get hurt again, love again. In the end, it will all still be for my good.
I am 32 already. I have been good, I have been bad, I have been in between. Sometimes I am like so sure of myself, seemingly self-effacing. Sometimes I am like a little girl lost in the jungle. But everyday, I decide. To keep on with the road I chose to tread. Just like any traveler, I encounter beasts along the way, much as I encounter angels who make my journey more bearable. Yes, I am one, grateful and hopeful traveler. But as I share my life freely as I go along, there are pains that I am bringing with me to my grave.
(I thank maping for this very beautiful photo.I thought just now, that it can speak something for this post. Thank you maping!)
9 comments:
Oh Anne, sorry to hear about the bad, sad news. It may takes time to heal but take it one day at a time.
You're right, we love, get hurt, learn and love once again.
I'm flattered that you put one of my pics in your blog. It's an honor :)
I hope and pray that everything works out for the best.
hey gurl...kung anu man ina, i know kaya mu gd na...as we travel there will always be bumpy roads, rough roads, smooth roads...life is short, whatever kind of roads man ina, we have to do our best to make our travel comfortable..
thank you ladies! what a pleasant way to start my sunday :) waking and and finding two beauties already graced my site. salamat! cat, you're right. we have to make the journey comfortable as best we can, at bear the inconvenience kon indi gid malikawan.
mapz, i actually hesitated using it at first, basi mangakig ka.hehehe but then i thought, i asked it from you so we can use in our magazine, so kumbaga my 'rights' na ko.heheheh salamat gid mapz! as in when it comes to flowers as subjects, you're the best so far. honest.kilatan pa ko diri subong kkksssssttttttt.....BOOOMMM!!! (toink)
favorite mu gd mga flowers anne no? tapulanga imu pic sa blog mu. hihihihi
hehehehe huo eh.kay amo ina ang naga balance sang akon pagkatawo.hehehe. super strong daan akon personality, ti kinanglan may pa ka pacify.mahahaaaay....
happy birthday (suuuuuper uber belated) nang. baho naho indi ka? hehehehe...
madula ka man, remember lang nga ari kami nga mga abyan maga tuytuy sa imo pa balik. I may not be that old. I might not have that experience to share. Pero I think may mga natun an man ako along the way nga pwede ishare. basi through it, you will see things sa lain nga angle...
mu lang na ah.
amo gd na ya ang life ta daw life gid..hehehe.paminsar pa ko sang madalum..masag-ob ko anay sa bubon...charing...serious na ah...life is a perfect circle,every bit of step we take..whether we like it or not we have to take the responsibility of making decisions...and then taking the end result of it is crucial...because you'll have to make another circle ...and so on and so fort...make sense?you figure.love you always.
a melancholy birthday?
a mom brings the 'happy' in the life of so many. so don't dwell in 'sad.'
cheer up, friend!
belated happy birthday!!!
"you have blessed me with good things and plenty, and surrounded my table with friends. Their love and their laughter enrich me, together we sing your praise." i love this verse from the Bible, always reminds me how blessed i am with friends like you, guys. who understand even the things that are left unsaid. thank you!
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