Tuesday, June 19, 2007

38.3













Temperature rising..rising...
My own spirit plumetting...plumetting...
down to the deepest recesses
of the unknown...what I fear the most ...

But it will end,
the nightlong vigil,
the holding on to his tiny hand,
the quivering of my own flesh,
the sweat from the humid room,
all warm from his fever...

It will end,
his agony...all my own...

Tomorrow, he will be up again,
celebrate his childhood --
forbidden just yet.












Oh, to be a mother. Gabriel is sick. Fever doesn't go down from 38. I am paranoid. I worry like hell. I pray, trust God. But just can't help it. I know that sounds very contradictory but wacthing my son weak and helpless takes the better of me -- all the time. What is helping me cope are my sisters, my own mother, a few close friends, my husband, and the knowledge that God loves Gabriel more than I do.


PS: One of the articles we published in Misyon was an article from mother whose daughter had a dengue fever. She wrote a really nicely written poem about it and I was thinking of that poem while I wrote this one above. Have to find it and share it here, really clear, vivid description of a mother's agony over her sick child.

11 comments:

jb29 said...

ello an-an, he should drink a lot of water. it will help a lot. God bless your baby. :-)

bebang rulona ... said...

ngipon lang na guro ah... lets pray ..

felinelostindwilderness said...

and give him nice hugs and kisses, hipo-e lang iya adtang...kung si mommie pa na, para madula ang tanan na saket..(meaning gina mental psych ko sang iloy ko sang una pati man ko!ngahaha!!)

momoftwo said...

ahay, I know the feelings Anne. It's really sad seeing the little ones when they're sick. Di lng sya pag pasuksok damol nga bayo, sando and diaper lang..tapos sponge bath will help lower his temperature. Kag make sure he's drinking kung ga suka no milk pedia sure or something basta keep him hydrated.

Kis a ga patubo unto or basi virus. Kay Layla sang una kada hilanat ear infection coz she used to go to a daycare. Normally it goes away in few days and fever mga 48hrs wala na. Hope he's fine now.

My name is Anne said...

haaay...kabay pa.thank you guys.till friday iya medication,if the fever still doesn't go away,we'll have his blood tested.and then pedia will advise whether or not he'll be admitted to the hospital.
i hope he gets better before reinee's bday celebration on saturday. naka pang invite na kmi daan guests.huhuhu

bebang rulona ... said...

pina ka sad moments na gid basta sick aton kids... pray ta lang si abe nga indi na magdugay... mayo lang may nurse ta di ... Maps, sa imo lang kami mangkot pirmi ah hehe

felinelostindwilderness said...

amo gid..sha daan ang palatu-on abi gamita pag ka nurse mo maping..free of charge..PRO-BONO. mandar ni kuring.

mama_aly said...

kahit with tempra forte, ayaw bumaba?

momoftwo said...

ay abaw pressure to the max gid ya? hehehe...

seriously, is the fever going down na? kung regular lng nga hilanat should go away in 2-3 days.

I'm talking based on my experiences with my little one, i can answer more questions once I'm done Pediatric Nursing which starts in 2 wks hehehe...

bebang rulona ... said...

update: talked to anne ds AM and d temp went down a bit na daw.. i think a tooth is coming out lang siguro ah..

felinelostindwilderness said...

hrhrh dentista gle ang kinahanglan..

GINA PA AGONGAN KO LANG DA KUNG SIN-O DRE ANG DENTISTA..ABI MAGPAKITA KAMO SA MAY TUBANGAN PLAZA MART. Baligya ta dayon sang mais kag tubo^..namit pang-us no? ay nadula ko, ano na to gina agong ko man?