FEATURED POETRY: Choosing Death by Richelle

I guess it's easier to be rejected, than being treated "kindly" but not getting the glimpse of what the future looks like. I have known rejection too many times, in many different forms. But being rejected by someone you love is the most painful one of all. What makes it really hurtful is when someone who rejected you did it for the sake of the other. When someone needs to shy away from you because of some personal issues, for me it should sting less. Then again is there really much difference? In love, all goodbyes mean pain. Pain that almost always make people wonder whys love always requires tears and some nightmares in between. The only consolation, if there is, is the lessons that are to be learned so that next time when it is once again time for goodbye, you know better than cry and be sorry for yourself. 

We are much smarter than this
Much stronger and wiser than this
But we decided not to.

This is not anymore about the circumstances
Nor the past or the feeling
But of our choices…

You chose to shut me off
I chose to try to give up
But it seemed like you choosing to abandon me
And it seemed like me choosing my own death.

Yeah I know, because there is no love
But why not respect at least be there?
Respect to make you listen
Respect to make you more concerned…

To end this cold turkey…
That’s all you know
That’s all you’re so used to do…

I wonder how you can stand this
While here I am
Still crawling to survive
For me to learn the ways
You are teaching me.

Has this been working for you ever since?
Has this been working for others?
Or will the earth just swallow me now?
Or put me in another life,
In another time…

 A fragile friendship
Sugar coated in special codes and names
A fragile friendship
Filled with broken promises
A fragile friendship
With tragic end
That’s what we had chosen to.