This tugs at my heart strings. I have been this low too many times in my life. Sometimes it confuses you, the pains that don't seem to go away. You look at yourself in the mirror and you wonder why you are suffering like that when all you did was love, be good, obey rules, be kind to others. I guess it does feel that way every once in a while for all of us. The only difference is how we cope, and whether we've got real friends or not.