I didn't get to experience this. I have no idea how it feels. Must be very ecstatic. I didn't experience firecrackers while kissing someone. It was just make-believe. Watching this video has made me look back on my younger days and feeling sorry for myself. I made wrong decisions and I can only regret it. There were a lot of things I believed could make me happy, and I strove hard for it, thinking if I work for it I can have it. How wrong I was.
There is so much sadness about how I fared in my life. Everything seemed to be a futile attempt at being happy. I couldn't even tell anyone that time, that most of the time, at the end of each day, I cry in my pillow feeling all the more so lonely. Right now, I think I know the reason why. I didn't find the one who will really love me. I thought he did. But it was only me all along.
I know that the basis for love is not the grandest wedding proposals such as this one. I have seen so many other wedding proposals that are so much like the ones you see in the movies. But this particular video has evoked in me so strongly, some of the feelings I have been denying myself.
Yes, I want to be treated like a princess.
Yes, it is a nice feeling when people fuss like this to make you happy.
Yes, I do still dream about it.
Yes, I too, want to be happy.
And yes, right now, I do believe I deserve it.
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